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Oh my god. It's October 22nd 
22nd-Oct-2010 02:12 pm
Amy Flowers
I almost didn't remember.

5 days ago was the worst day of my life and changed the direction my life was headed. I cried tears of black. Because of all the mascara I had on- Halloween party- but it still seemed symbolic and appropriate.

22nd-Oct-2010 11:54 pm (UTC)
Whoa...what happened there?
24th-Oct-2010 10:35 pm (UTC)
Long story and I only remember half the details now. Basically, in all my 14-year-old-ness, I was 'in love' (or thought I was, which to a 14 year old is the same difference) with this guy. It also in general had been a bad time in my life, I was sobbing alot- teenage angst and hormoneness and whatnot. So he hosted a Halloween Party, and I realized during it for whatever reason- just suddenly realized- that he was a douche and asshole. And it broke me, because I was convinced in my 14 year old ness that he was like, The One (despite the fact he didn't like me or anything). So I then didn't go to school for about, a month, and finally one day decided to get over it and date my friend who I didn't like at the time, but who liked me and was perfect for me.

Anddd lead into TONS of other drama, and blab blab bla blab, tome of angst later, I had lost all the people I loved and held closest and did the last ditch effort of changing schools to Bakersfield an hour away. And then my life became awesome, and I made amazing friends, and I was happy, and I started going to cons when I met tons of OTHER amazing people (well I had gone to AX a few times before that, but ya) and- ya. :)

14 year old me was very. Um. 14. Lol.
26th-Oct-2010 03:48 am (UTC)
Heh, that reminds me of the worst day of my life. Mine was Christmas Eve...I may have been 14 too! (lol, something about that age that marks us....oh hormones!) Not to worry, at 27 years of age, I'm very much over it. Granted, I had to lose my father to completely get over it and forgive others and myself. But...what's certain is I no longer look at that day with shame or sadness. It was just another chapter of my life. (And it wasn't that bad in retrospect...but ohh, how I carried it with me for years! So happy to finally let go....)
2nd-Nov-2010 12:31 am (UTC) - Days, years
Your post says "5 days ago." I assume you mean five years?
2nd-Nov-2010 06:01 am (UTC) - Re: Days, years
Oh. Opps. Years, lol.
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